Swimming

dear you
i'm wide awake, it's almost 5 am
what have you done to me?
you swim in my head.

i thought i'd be long asleep by now
i thought i'd be long asleep by now
my eyelids were getting so heavy
the thought of slumber lured me
like you did once, gentle summoning

when you swim, you loft, you wade
you kick and you float.
i soak in my sheets. there, this.
is it lonely inside my head
or is it vast with knowing?

my head and i
sometimes we don't connect
i feel. like blindfold, touching walls
finding space, feeling light
or heaviness of having. you.
is it warm inside my head
or is it hot like fever?

when you summoned
you were graceful.
i slept soundly, unalarmed
in calm water, without making a splash
i sighed. it felt right.

are you wide awake too?
are you beckoning me to come for a swim
at 5 am, please tell me it's true
let's skinny dip and recollect, rummage
through my thoughts. i'm sure we'll find you
somewhere in there

like this. you write me a letter,
i'm swimming in your head
and my scent is in your nose
lingering like pajamas, dandelions
home. please tell me i smell like home
where the records play, songs stay
stuck in your head, where i take a bath
after soaking the sheets

you make me feel feminine.
i'd like to reward you somehow.
extend your hand and allow me in the water
hold me. let's keep each other afloat
watch the moon rise in my head,
that's me feeling light. having.

written on September 3, 2008

(you words are beautiful painted pictures. Talent!
Posted by Ashlee on 03 Sep 08 Wednesday - 1:59 AM)